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Lilac flowers hang on woody stems over a yellow building in Athens. The view is from the ground looking up at the sky.

I’m working propped up in bed today. White sunlight peeps in through the window slats to my right, but the room is fairly dim. It’s easier to get lost in another world when the lights on this one aren’t up too high. I feel good today. Contented.

This morning we went for a walk after coffee. We may not be in ‘tourist mode,’ but we’re still in Athens, and there’s no shortage of things to see. There’s a very tall, rocky hill (Mount Lycabettus) not too far from here; we can see it out our window, and we walked to it. So many stairs to get there! Up and up and up. When we reached the base of the rocky cliff, the ride in the funicular was ten Euros a person, so we decided to walk the rest of the way.

So we climbed, up and up and up. My thighs burned. The sun blasted down over our heads, unforgiving even in the morning hours. When we reached the top, we could see all of Athens spread around us, a dense, panoramic blanket made from a tumble of whitish buildings. Metal surfaces on the hillsides glittered like fool’s gold. In the distance, the Mediterranean was a flat, blue spill speckled with white sailboats. Paddle-shaped cacti packed the steep hillsides below. Tourists had carved initials into some of the fat leaves, leaving brown scars behind. Three feral tabby cats lounged up at the viewpoint peak, nibbling food that people had left for them, utterly unimpressed with my feat of athleticism or the epic view.

I thought back to hilly Lisbon with appreciation, because those huff-and-puff hills helped to make the calf muscles that carried me so high today. For once, I wasn’t the one huffing and puffing on my way to a viewpoint. It felt like exercise. Like effort. Not at all a bad thing.

We opened our phones to quantify our awesomeness. 55 flights of stairs climbed? Kickass! Feeling victorious, I returned to sea level, snarfed down a sandwich, and indulged in a nap. Now, I’m propped up in bed with my laptop, resolving not to move around unless I have to.

A good climb deserves a good sit. I’m pretty sure those tabby cats would agree.

Into the book I go.

Artificial Intelligence tools, especially those that generate text or images from a prompt, along with synthetic voices that mimic human narrators, have become a hot topic in the indie author world this year. As an author, I've had these tools pushed at me continually. Google, Apple, and Amazon have invited me to have a synthetic narrator read my books. Software firms are pushing “writing” software that uses large language models to generate paragraphs or even entire chapters based on a prompt. Many independent cover designers and authors have taken to using tools like Midjourney to create illustrations and images.

It. Is. Everywhere.

Large corporations view these tools as a way of making labor more efficient. (MBA speak for eliminating jobs). For software companies, these tools are a source of revenue. Creative people, including writers, may view AI tools as a way of getting access to things they otherwise couldn't afford. For example, I can't afford to hire a professional narrator without losing money on every book, but I could make a synthetic audiobook for free. Thus all sides of the industry, from the powerful CEO to the small fry, will find no shortage of incentives to use AI.

And there's a difference between legality and ethics. AI tools may or may not be legal; we're still waiting for the courts to sort that out. Yet the ethical implications trouble me. Most (if not all) generative AI tools were developed by ingesting huge numbers artistic works without permission or compensation. Unscrupulous technologists like to use the word “learning” to de-fang what they are doing here, but it's doublespeak. When most of us think “learning,” we conceptualize the word in a human context. It's as if these people are saying: This technology is just a little boy! You wouldn't prevent a little boy from learning, would you? Only software isn't a person any more than a corporation is. Mass scraping of artistic works for the use of a corporation to create tools designed to replace human labor isn't “learning.” Double-meanings only serve to obfuscate what is truly happening, and I choose not to be fooled by that baloney.

I also have a strong emotional reaction to these technologies. For me, art is about human expression, and to strip away that human core is a deeply icky prospect. People who throw a prompt into a box to get an idea are not creating those ideas. People who jot down a bullet point and have software write a paragraph of description for them are not writers, not even if they swap a word or two. I'm sorry to report that popping a frozen burrito in the microwave doesn't make me a chef. Not even if I drizzle some delicious hot sauce on top. Others may disagree with my opinions, and such is life, but I'm not interested in debating what is evident to me, deep down in my bones. Nor am I going to knock on anyone's door to bully them. But I don't have one whit of interest in what these people produce.

Others are free to do as they like. But I have to wonder: Why don't you care about other people?

To be an artist (or a human, really) is to exist in an ecosystem. Over the last thirty years too many of us have shrugged as “innovations” scoop out the pulsing center of our communities. We shopped at the corporate mega store instead of the neighborhood shop run by the guy we knew, and we shrugged at self checkout, allowing our consciences to be soothed by the empty promises to retrain those cashiers. I know I did. I've been way too complacent about this shit. Now, AI companies want to replace not just human artists, but people working the drive through, and office workers, and the gods-know who else.

I can already hear some designer-jeans wearing apologist shouting from a distance: We're not replacing anyone! We're helping!

Hmm. Helping whom, exactly?

Even if you think the technology is swell, even if you have no moral objection to the way it was made, do you not care that the people you're displacing have nowhere else to go? Tech CEOs will mutter about things like Universal Basic Income, maybe, but that's a dodge, a set of magic words thrown into the air. If you actually cared about that solution, you'd put it in place before you gave ten thousand jobs to fancy autocomplete and kicked your workers onto the street.

Why don't we care about other people? I mean, a professional narrator would put my books in the red, so I'm not hiring one, but I can still care about narrators. I can't always afford a cover artist, but I can DIY my covers rather than buy cheap, AI-produced art built on the backs of artists I've never met. Every use of synthetic voices and generated imagery serves to normalize and strengthen the means of our peers' destruction, doesn't it? And remember, these companies could have built their models with permission. They could have asked. But I think they knew what the answer would be, and when it comes to exploitation, the morally bankrupt never ask. They take. And they count on the rest of us to gleefully snap up the first few rounds of freebies that result, making us compliant participants in the destruction of our own ecosystem.

And yet... we can care about each other! It's a thing we're allowed to do. In a sense, it's the only power we have. It is possible to see a technology and say to ourselves “Yeah, the cons outweigh the pros, right now.” AI pushers want us to believe that wide adoption of this shit is inevitable, but that's the grand mythos of the “disruptive” tech firm. First, you believe the overwhelming narrative that says you have no power, and then you go along quietly. They're very, very good at this.

Also, (please allow me a side-note here) when it comes to outsourcing my writing to fancy autocomplete, I have to ask: Why in the heck would I? Why would I outsource my joy? I'd no more outsource my writing, my craft, than I would buy a piece of software to love my family for me, or to hug my husband for me, or to attend a friend's party for me. Art is connection. Art is struggle. Art is love.

I realize that there will always be those who view a painting or a story or a piece of music solely as a consumer product, a widget to be produced at the lowest cost. That mindset is endemic in the “Get Rich in Self Publishing” movement, replete with an endless parade of talks on how to create “minimum viable products” or “low content books” and master the dark arts of Amazon Ads to click your way to success. Meanwhile, those pushing AI tools to authors try to muddy the waters by claiming that all spell checkers are AI, and so are assistive devices for the disabled, and therefore you're already doing it, right? WHY ARE YOU SO AFRAID OF PROGRESS, TECHNOPHOBES? IT'S ONLY $39.95 A MONTH TO MAKE YOUR WRITING DREAMS COME TRUE. Only a fool expects truth from the mouth of a snake, and here we indie authors are, together in the pit among the hissing hordes, surrounded.

Ugh, I say.

Alas, I'm not here to tell anyone what to do. I can only share how this shit-show makes me feel. And here's where I've landed, personally:

I won't use AI tools to generate text or images. When sourcing stock images to use for my covers, I'll try to find those that were made by a human, although it can be difficult to tell the difference as things aren't labeled, and I'll probably get it wrong sometimes. When I hire a cover artist, I'll ask that they not use any AI images, and I'll avoid those that focus on the stuff. Also, I won't use synthetic voices. I think the bar for any AI-driven technology needs to be, minimum, was your tool built with consent from the contributors. Beyond that, I'd also like people in my industry to be able to afford rent, thank you very much. My writing doesn't make much money, so these choices will mean more hassle for me, and not being able to have things that other authors have, and that's okay. I can live with that.

My big worry? What happens when distributors start forcing these things on small time authors? But I suppose I'll deal with the future when it arrives.

We're all familiar with the dark side of the human condition. Our penchant for weakness. Some people are so eager for a shortcut that they don't care who gets exploited or left behind along the way. It's easier to remain ignorant, always. To get ours, and to let the details work themselves out. I'm not immune to stupid, selfish decisions. I don't always get things right, and I'm just muddling my way through, like everyone else. How will technology change the arts, in years to come? I don't know, but I know what writing means to me, and I hope to keep on doing it with integrity.

Anyway, these are my thoughts about Generative AI in the arts. Best of luck as you formulate your own.

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Street art in Athens. A mysterious green face surrounded by decorative swirls. Its brain is visible, the top of the skull removed. It doesn't seem bothered.

Good morning from my borrowed desk, aka the mini IKEA dining table in our rental, where I am ushering my brain gremlins away so I can write. Today's gremlins are mostly about publishing.

Assorted Thoughts

Serialization – Every so often I get the urge to try to post chapters of my work in process, sharing things as I go. Some writers do this as an income-making technique, on Patreon or Ko-FI, but honestly the thing that appeals to me is the deadline. Knowing people will be reading, week by week, sounds like a good way to organize myself. If I did a Patreon thing, I could even throw up the kinds of things behind a paywall that I'm loathe to share in public. Story planning. Drawings. Research materials. It could be a full-on watch the sausage getting made scenario.

So what's stopping me? A few things. First, I'm concerned about what happens when I'm twenty chapters into a novel and I decide to throw out a whole-ass subplot. If people are reading, am I taking something away from them? Second, I'm not sure enough people would be interested to make it worthwhile. Third, I'm loathe to ask people for money for anything other than buying a book from me. The paywall seems necessary to keep out bots and scrapers, and to be frank, to motivate me to do that extra work. But I have a mild feeling of ick around subscription services, and that, combined with the rest of it, stops me from moving forward.

It could be fun though. Maybe.

Paperbacks – When I set up my bookstore I was mostly excited about being able to sell ebooks directly to readers without middlemen, and without DRM. But the plan was always to sell paperbacks through my store as well. Someone could place an order, and my printhouse would print the book, package and ship it. Easy peasy, right? Well, it's not so peasy after all. There's shipping and taxes on shipping and customs regulations and print house quality issues. The cost of duplicating materials in different databases. The time cost of managing it all. The risks of returns and so on.

I was willing to do all that. But after more than a year of thinking it over, I'm leaning against selling print books directly in my store. If someone's going to buy a print book, I'd rather they get it through their local bookstore.

One thing that the indie author community is sorely lacking (in my opinion) is a notion of solidarity with our peers who are booksellers, illustrators, artists, and narrators. Perhaps it comes from the fact that we started as the underdogs, the ones that no one took seriously. The attitude often feels like: Bookstores didn't give a shit about us, so why should we care about them? Well, I think that's changing, for one thing. And it's never a bad idea to support the broader ecosystem that you're a part of. When it comes to small and mid-sized businesses, we succeed or we fail together.

So... if want indie bookstores to exist, so why not send them my print business? In the process, I'll save myself and P a lot of hassle. But I'd consider selling signed editions. Something specific like that.

Anyway, that's where I'm leaning right now. I reserve my right to pivot wildly and without warning, as I often do. Ha.

Welp. That's enough blathering for one morning, I say. Back to the book in progress. Loretta's in trouble and I need to figure out how she's gonna wiggle outta this mess. Fun times. Possibly some explosions. WHEEEE!

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Photo by me: street art in central Athens

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A leather laptop case and notepad.

I’ve said before that getting “back into” a writing project is like trying to find a path in a dense forest. When I’ve had more than a single day off, it takes me a while to recover the trail. That’s where I’m at this morning. Pushing aside the brush. Seeking my way back in.

Yesterday I didn’t have much luck, but today feels more promising. I slept like a champ last night.

Brushy thoughts

We arrived at our short-term rental with backpacks full of dirty clothes, sweaty and tired. Greek taxi drivers have a notorious reputation, but ours had been exuberant and kind, using Google Translate on his phone to narrate suggestions of places to visit as he wove deftly through the dense traffic all around us. My feet felt like concrete blocks as we tromped up the stairs. The unfamiliar washing machine defeated my attempts to understand it, but Patrick figured it out eventually It had a clever little metal drum that you have to snap shut by hand before you close the outer door.

*Just one more stop*, I promised myself. One more pause, while we wait for our flight home. Everything feels more difficult at the end of a long journey. My heart is already home, and my body hasn’t caught up yet.

Our building is charming and crumbly-looking. The dusty television is all in Greek, but they have Nickelodeon, and the Mighty Morphin Power Rangers require no translation. POW! Why is that teenager talking to a sentient t-rex? How does he shoot green lightning bolts from his hands? It’s best just to roll with these things.

With home on the horizon, I’ll keep on rolling till I get there.

Today's writing music is Who Will You Believe by the Pernice Brothers.

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A busy group of sailboats being wheeled out on a pier. Crisp white sails with black and red letters. Sailors in motion.

Yeaterday I added 3000 words to The Hard Way Home and then I floated, starfish-style, in our hotel pool for a few minutes. The world went yellow through my closed eyelids. The Mediterranean sun is amazingly bright and white. You can get a sunburn here without feeling so much as a tingle. The sea is the bluest blue I've ever seen. It's as if all the other blues in the world are fakers.

The hotel gave P a free bottle of red wine for his birthday, and I've been mixing it 1 to 4 with diet Sprite and drinking it on our balcony. In Spain, wine and soda is called tinto de verano, or spring wine. Sometimes they mix it with lemon Fanta, other times with gaseosa, which is Sprite zero minus the brand name. Tinto de Verano sounds fancy but I suppose it's a homemade wine cooler?

I resolve to feel fancy regardless. 😀

I took that photo in a port town in Crete while we were wandering around to see what was there. We were almost done for the day when we ran across a small marina where sailors were preparing their boats for the water. That's the stuff I love about travel, the chance to bump into ordinary lives unfurling.

Did you know people from Crete are called Cretans? Not cretins, but I just about barked when I heard it. Crete was very pretty, but did I mention how blue the Mediterranean Sea is? Unreal, almost. I can't get over it.

A Curious Matter

Between you, me, and the fence post, I've met some horrible tourists these last few weeks. I'm talking about...

Rich people who brag about denying tips to service workers, chatting about their trips to the Ritz in Dubai, diamonds sparkling on their fingers as they smirk to one another.

An orange-tinted bozo throwing a fit when he didn't get enough attention at dinner. (Why is it always the orange ones?)

Impatient people rudely interrupting the tour because they were bored with history and didn't want to learn anything, apparently.

And a woman so proud of refusing to give so much as a dollar to an impoverished street kid in Morocco, even after he'd taken her to the place she wanted to go.

The guy who blurted, during dinner, that he hates Carnival cruises because he doesn't want to look at fat women in thongs.

I mean... what do you even say?

Patrick reacts reasonably of course, politely affirming that gratuities are a part of the cost of travel, for example. Meanwhile, I clench my jaw until my teeth crack, wishing the ancient Gods would rise from the sea and throw lightning bolts.

How can you not be grateful for the chance to travel? I don't get the level of entitlement all around us. Greece is so beautiful, but I've been surrounded by human ugliness.

It makes me cringe. It makes me wonder... oh shit, am I one of these people? I hope I'm not, but when you're surrounded by bozos you may check your face for a red nose, ya know?

Oof.

I'd heard a lot about post-pandemic travelers being awful and... yeah, maybe. I don't want to paint everyone with a critical brush (we've met some lovely folks too) but it's indeed noticeable.

Today I face West, thinking of home. After a week in tourist mode I'm glad to be heading to our last stop. It's time to work and get organized. To get our ducks in a row for a return to the States. This is the longest I've been away from home, ever, and I feel lucky, homesick, and very blue.

Not sad blue. Mediterranean blue. The kind of blue that makes you glad to be alive.

Grateful for the day

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Street art. One figure walks with a backpack. Another consults a map. The figures are cartoony, almost like a drawing from a Dr. Seuss book.

Greetings from Madrid's Bajaras Airport where we are waiting for our next flight. There are two kinds of people I hope to avoid in the airport. The ones that cluster in front of staircases and thoroughfares, blocking all progress, and the ones that mow you down in their rush to be at the front of the line. As much as I love Spain and her people, this is the worst country for walking in a crowd. Pedestrians bounce around like pinballs and stop suddenly, with no rhyme or reason. Straight lines become impossible. Moving through the city is akin to playing roller derby, minus the hip checks. Despite the colorful chaos of humans being human, this is one of my favorite airports. It's clean and easy to navigate.

Transit days are full of small tasks that make life interesting. How do I add an “airport supplement” to my metro card? How many stops until we get off? Do we need to take our computers out at security? Where is our gate? I feel like I'm playing a real life video game, hopping and dodging, solving puzzles. We're at the midpoint now. After the flight we'll do it again in reverse. Airport, metro, then the walk to our hotel. Can I beat my high score? I award myself points for maintaining my inner chill. Stress is the enemy, and I want to fling myself onto a bed later tonight and let it all go.

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I saw that written on a t-shirt here in Spain and it made me laugh. No nap, no party. That sounds about right to me.

Most businesses close in the afternoons here. They shut down around 3 or 3:30 and reopen at 6:30 or so. It's considered rude to call someone on the phone during siesta time. Everything slows down, but in the evening, the city is busy until midnight or later.

Siesta, then Fiesta.

This is the first time that P and I have gone along with the siesta thing in Spain. We eat lunch late, take a walk, then come back to our rental for a shower and a nap. A lot of times I don't even fall asleep. I just close my eyes for a bit. Evenings arrive with far more energy after a short rest. I catch a second wind, almost every time.

It felt strange getting into bed at 4 or 5 at night for a short snooze. Yet I've come to look forward to it. A nap is a tiny oasis where I can recover, every day.

I'm like a kindergartner, taking a nap on a mat after recess.

Good morning, fellow bookworms.

Have you read anything great lately? I'm still nibbling my way through Martha Wells's The Witch King. I started it a few months back, but I wasn't in the right headspace for it at the time. It's really good, though! Very different from her Murderbot novels.

I’m penning this letter on a train to Madrid, watching the green and tan patchwork quilt of agricultural Spain fly by. We just passed a huge field of wind turbines, calling to mind that most famous Spanish novel Don Quijote, whose titular hero mistook windmills for his enemies and attacked them, his sword drawn.

I have yet to read Don Quijote, but it's on my someday list. 😌


Patrick and I enjoyed (and should I say, survived?) the culmination of the Fallas festival in Valencia. There were loud marching bands and loud pyrotechnic explosions right outside our window until five in the morning, all week. We had a blast (ha ha literally) and by the end, my brain felt like it had been pushed through a cheese grater.

While Fallas is most known for the enormous monuments, which are burned on the final night of the festival, I was most impressed by something else. Outside the main cathedral, an enormous wooden woman (the local aspect of the Virgin Mary) was erected, and over a course of two days, locals in traditional garb (called falleras and falleros) paraded through the streets carrying red and white carnations. Climbers filled the wooden body with the flowers, forming a beautiful cape and gown. More than 100,000 people participated in the ceremony, which is called La Ofrenda, or in English, the offering.

The four story wooden framework of the virgin Mary and child. Her head, baby, and crown are detailed and complete, and the body below is wooden slats.

Spanish ladies in traditional dress. Large silk embroidered skirts in an 18th century style with lace veils.

Mary's body is full of red and white flowers, forming a beautiful cape with floral patterns.

I kept looking around and wondering what Ellie Tappet might make of all these happenings in Valencia. I'm pretty sure she'd love that flower ceremony. As for the demon children throwing lit fireworks into crowds all week? Well, perhaps not so much. 😏 And as for me, I was grateful for the chance to experience something new.

Even if it meant losing some sleep.

Oh, and Happy Easter to all who celebrate! Do you have any springtime traditions? Back home in Seattle, I’d be walking down to Pike Place Market to pick up fresh tulips from the flower vendors, enjoying the explosion of color that occurs down there this time of year. Or maybe slicing open a package of marshmallow Peeps to get them perfectly stale before I eat them.

Hey! It’s traditional. 😜

I’m still scribbling away, making progress on my books. Speaking of which, I have some time until our stop, so I should make the most of it.

Until next time!

Cheri B.

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It’s raining steadily this morning, long cool drips of water that patter the sidewalks and streets, forming shallow puddles. Almost everyone uses an umbrella here in Valencia when it rains, and I joined in, borrowing the one our landlord had thoughtfully put outside the door in a black iron stand. It was the push-button type, and it opens with a satisfying *thwock*. The shops have umbrella stands too, places to hold your sword while you conduct your business or drink your morning coffee.

There are many small conveniences like that around town. Not only umbrella stands, but little hitching posts for “dog parking” and mini lockers for storing your big bags or granny carts at the supermercados. The granny carts lock up with a long chain, and you can put a euro coin into the lockers (you get the coin back) to borrow the key while you shop. It’s one of the many things I love here, those small courtesies. Like the way you can weigh your produce on a machine in the produce aisle and it pops out a little bar code sticker. The cashiers just scan the stickers; everything has been pre-weighed on the spot. I feel like these “small conveniences” are the things you get when you live in a city designed for pedestrians. I want to package these little innovations up and carry them home.

Borrowed Habits

This isn’t the first time I’ve wanted to carry things from other countries home with me. My time in the UK gave me a love of electric kettles, and I no longer make tea in the microwave, like I did growing up. Visiting Japan deepened my appreciation for the washlet bidet. Once you get a bidet, you never want to go back, especially with a heated seat in winter.

And Spain? Spain makes me want to buy a granny cart and haul it around town when I go shopping. Only they probably don’t call them “granny carts” here. I saw a perfectly fit twenty-something pulling hers through the mall, loading it up as she shopped. You can walk miles and miles with one of those things. You can keep a hand free. Some of them are narrow enough to take on a city bus.

I want a granny cart! 😎

Just One More…

Our time in Valencia will be winding down soon, and we’re already talking about our return. It’s always difficult to pry myself out of this place, the second city of my heart. So we’re making our lists of things we want to do before we leave. Just one more cup of coffee at our favorite outdoor cafe. Just one more meal of Valencian paella. Just one more walk through Turia park.

Just one more…

I’ve been struggling with my writing for the last week or so. My brain feels distracted. Glitchy. Progress is horribly slow. Hopefully the raindrops will help me today. The air feels wet and cool, almost as if we’re back in Seattle. Productivity weather. Thinking weather.

Into the book I go!

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When I've had too many days off in a row, getting back into the book feels like hunting for a hidden path in a jungle. At least that's how it feels to me. Yesterday, I couldn't find the path.

Late last night, I was relaxing in bed, preparing to sleep. The room was dark and the bed was soft. I heard a woman's voice.

“Tell us about your ship.”

And I saw her, sitting with her sisters around a low table. I knew what she wanted to know.

There it was, the start to the next chapter! So I hauled my butt out of bed and quickly wrote it down. When a voice speaks, you need to answer. In the morning, I knew she'd be gone.

🥱

Good morning. Coffee please.

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